-i dont want to let go. im gripping this tightly. i cant stop change. its too huge .i want time to come to a standstill, i want to rewind back. i want to freeze. i want to stop. i dont want to move. but i cant stop change. change that's like a hurricane, a flood. its overwhelming. and im not ready to let go. i cant pry it from my fingers. its going past too quickly. why? why? why?- double post.
im vexed,fustrated,angry, upset,sad, confused.
really.
im soo scared.
SIX DAYS AND MY FATE WILL CHANGE.
i cant believe this.
what i fear is my grades and seperation
and i probably would be in a bad class and i wont be in the class with my friends
and i hate that
i dont want to be in a class with people i dont really know..
i want t be in a good class
with my friends
with good grades
but its impossible.
im veryvery scared
im vexed.
im upset.
its like time is flying by and i cant hop on to catch it.
like im finally being forced to step out of my storybook world
like...
its change.
a change that's inevitable.
why couldnt i go back to the days when we were all together.
we still are!
that's why i dont want this change
but i have to make it
and i dont want to
im scared of everything
im reallyreallyreally scared.
im scared of being plunged into a classroom of "strangers"
im scared of being alone
im scared of seperation
im scared of grades.
i cant get this thinking out of my head.
i know my friends will be there for me
but, will things change?
i dont think so
but i cant stop thinking.
what do i do now.